So much bread. And rambling.
I currently have the slightest case of tinnitus (ringing in the ear). It's so faint that I wasn't sure if I was imagining it. It's super high pitched and happens in sporadic bursts. Even though cognitively, I know this is benign, my anxiety mind takes anything abnormal and runs with it, so I am feeling the tightening of the chest and hyperawareness coming on. My sisters are at a concert and can't distract me by FaceTiming, so I am distracting myself by writing this post!
I've gotten pretty good at making the low carb bread. The first batch was pretty good (any "bread" would be decent when you haven't been allowed more than a slice a week for a month and a half) but was a little too dense and needed more flavor. The second batch, made 2 days ago, was a bit better but still a little dense and didn't taste like Michelle's. So tonight, I baked it for even less time and mixed it less too. It's too early to really be able to tell since they're cooling, but I think I finally got it right! I added just a tad more salt to the batch too, and made them big enough to be sandwich bread. Even with them that size, they have 6g of carbs in them. It is SO good. Like, I never thought I would say this, but I prefer the low carb bread over, say, whole wheat bread. It is a little saltier and tastes like it's already been buttered. AND without the guilt.
I think I've discovered why I am plateauing this week. I was debating whether or not to share this because sometimes it's an awkward subject, but I want to be completely open with this blog. I promise there won't be gross details, and if there are, I will warn ahead of time. I am PMSing this week, so I definitely am retaining more water than usual. My pants are more snug than they were last week, and I know I haven't put on more weight. I actually just looked it up, and apparently there is a correlation between PMS and tinnitus, due to fluid retention in the inner ear. I don't tend to get overly emotional too easily, but I cried at the barn (missing Rocket) and got choked up by a couple of Moth Radio Hour stories while doing the draft barn tonight. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a robot, but tears don't happen TOO too often. So, basically, Aunt Flo is coming my way soon.
Portion sizes have always been a struggle for me. I still very much have a tendency to add "a little bit more" of either yogurt or granola to my breakfast. But overall, I am getting a lot better, especially since I no longer have carbs to load up on. I did have a small tortilla the other day, but I tried not to feel too guilty. I have no problem having a limited amount of processed carbs as long as it doesn't throw me off track. I have discovered another go-to meal is a boneless chicken breast with cheese and guacamole. It's so good. I had that, broccoli, and one of my rolls for lunch. It was under 10g carbs. Amazing, I tell you. (I might've had the other half of my roll before I got to photograph it.
A friend invited me to a week-long free trial of a fitness accountability program. I am thinking of giving it a go. Only problem is, I get home from the farms at 9:30pm and live on the top floor of a duplex. Don't know if my downstairs neighbors would appreciate me jumping around at 10 at night, but I think it'd help me not only with losing the weight but also getting stronger for my jobs.
I start school next week. Again. Eternal student much?! But at least this time, I know what the endgame is and I have a legitimate goal/career. The classes I am taking are all math and sciences, which are my worst subjects. And these are the prerequisites to get into the program. These are the grades that will count. I foresee many study groups and tutoring in my future. Hopefully I can figure out a good lunch I can take with me on those long days.
I've gotten pretty good at making the low carb bread. The first batch was pretty good (any "bread" would be decent when you haven't been allowed more than a slice a week for a month and a half) but was a little too dense and needed more flavor. The second batch, made 2 days ago, was a bit better but still a little dense and didn't taste like Michelle's. So tonight, I baked it for even less time and mixed it less too. It's too early to really be able to tell since they're cooling, but I think I finally got it right! I added just a tad more salt to the batch too, and made them big enough to be sandwich bread. Even with them that size, they have 6g of carbs in them. It is SO good. Like, I never thought I would say this, but I prefer the low carb bread over, say, whole wheat bread. It is a little saltier and tastes like it's already been buttered. AND without the guilt.
I think I've discovered why I am plateauing this week. I was debating whether or not to share this because sometimes it's an awkward subject, but I want to be completely open with this blog. I promise there won't be gross details, and if there are, I will warn ahead of time. I am PMSing this week, so I definitely am retaining more water than usual. My pants are more snug than they were last week, and I know I haven't put on more weight. I actually just looked it up, and apparently there is a correlation between PMS and tinnitus, due to fluid retention in the inner ear. I don't tend to get overly emotional too easily, but I cried at the barn (missing Rocket) and got choked up by a couple of Moth Radio Hour stories while doing the draft barn tonight. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a robot, but tears don't happen TOO too often. So, basically, Aunt Flo is coming my way soon.
Portion sizes have always been a struggle for me. I still very much have a tendency to add "a little bit more" of either yogurt or granola to my breakfast. But overall, I am getting a lot better, especially since I no longer have carbs to load up on. I did have a small tortilla the other day, but I tried not to feel too guilty. I have no problem having a limited amount of processed carbs as long as it doesn't throw me off track. I have discovered another go-to meal is a boneless chicken breast with cheese and guacamole. It's so good. I had that, broccoli, and one of my rolls for lunch. It was under 10g carbs. Amazing, I tell you. (I might've had the other half of my roll before I got to photograph it.
A friend invited me to a week-long free trial of a fitness accountability program. I am thinking of giving it a go. Only problem is, I get home from the farms at 9:30pm and live on the top floor of a duplex. Don't know if my downstairs neighbors would appreciate me jumping around at 10 at night, but I think it'd help me not only with losing the weight but also getting stronger for my jobs.
I start school next week. Again. Eternal student much?! But at least this time, I know what the endgame is and I have a legitimate goal/career. The classes I am taking are all math and sciences, which are my worst subjects. And these are the prerequisites to get into the program. These are the grades that will count. I foresee many study groups and tutoring in my future. Hopefully I can figure out a good lunch I can take with me on those long days.
I have had a couple of people say that they enjoy my writing, and I am genuinely surprised. I am absolutely flattered though! This is more of a way for me to write down all of the nonsense that is flowing around in my anxiety-prone, ADHD little brain of mine, so the fact that people actually read this is a foreign concept. I imagine most of my posts are dry as a board. I also have gotten a couple of comments from people saying that they notice my weight loss. I have apparently lost from my waist and my face. Again, always nice to hear that the work is paying off.
Well, it worked, folks. I stopped thinking about my tinnitus. Shit, I just thought about it.
Well, it worked, folks. I stopped thinking about my tinnitus. Shit, I just thought about it.
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