Sugarholic

Well, shit (excuse my language). I think that Gatorade did more than just ruin my blood sugar levels. I am now relaxed on my Xanax from a hypochondria attack earlier in the night, and am craving sugar. Like, more than I have in days. I am worried that the med has lowered my guard enough that I will give in. Problem is, I am still kind of hungry. To eat something on par with my diet at 10:40PM or go to bed hungry. Haven't decided yet.

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  1. AmyJuly 22, 2017 at 9:34 PM

    You should eat if you're hungry, just not refined sugars/refined carbs!

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